do not despair

hope
is to see
the flickering light
in the dark
the ray that shines
like a stranger in a line

hope
is to reach out
in a crowd
when you are suffocated
you can connect somehow
time, place and fate dictates

hope is always there
provided you do not despair
live your life
do not be scare
and you will be spared..

only a dream

those magic moments
when i came
it was only you
i can imagine
but you are an opaque
and i am only a game
i hear your moans
through the phone
sighs and moans
deep and low
o! such sexy
sexual tone
i can feel
your gentle blow
but it's all in a dream
and your image is vague
those moments
made me beam
but you are dark
and always opaque...

hope for love

the thinker in me
feels for the devil in you
but who is the devil or angel
we are but fools in blue

we seek for words of hope
we looked for doors of love
life is how you learn to cope
or you'll find yourself in a stove

Mar 20, 2009 9:52:00 AM

naked and all

i would like to reach out to the stars
and make love to a pick in the bar
stripped naked and exposed to all
and let loose my passion to the core

just to prove to this world of closed doors
and all the wordsmith using the name of God
that we are human with flaws after all
and God is not out to punish us all

for we are creatures of imperfections
allowed to have feelings and indulgences
look at me and you in naked reflections
are you in a state of denial or ambivalences

i was busy as a bee...

why are you avoiding me?
please don't be silly....
i am not a little girl anymore
but you are being silly!
i happened to be real busy..
and i missed you real pretty.
many times i wished it's you i see
i wished to be with you by the sea
but it will not be a reality
i thought i was the one being silly
i thought i was the one that's a baby
was surprised with your temper, my lady!
oh! you have been real silly...
i was really being busy!
busy like a bee....

a lover's agony...

my lover remains partially hidden
yet she's always loved and forgiven
undercover for unknown reasons
yet she's my lover for all seasons

there are days she will be stormy
and she will show she's unhappy
that's when she will say or act silly
for in reality it is a lover's agony

there are times she feels lonely
then she displays her displeasure
hides as if she's ugly whilst she's pretty
yet this love and feel i learn to treasure

without her my nights are always cold
i miss her presence and her warmth
when i retire in the night i feel old
what if i die in the night of rain and storm

will i ever see her...

2/6/09

Twist and turns

Mixing and matching,
Twisting and turning,
Hoping and praying,
Dreaming and considering,

Never knowing yet always knowing,
Wanting to, yet not wanting to,
Mixing my heart,
Matching my soul to yours,

Twisting fate with the flick of the wrist,
Turning my life over,
Hoping that it would end,
Praying that it never would stop,

Thinking it was over,
Wishing that it wasn't,
Dreaming of its coming,
Considering letting it going

Never knowing if it's true,
Always knowing that it's there.
Wanting to live in the light,
Not wanting the light to come,

The love you have given me most
The dreams of having you close,
Thinking of you day after day,
Can it happen like you say?

closed doors...

i wish its me you are referring to
i wish its me you will turn to
but i am just a cyber shadow
that you can so easily throw

you are romantically nolstagic
stubborn right to the very core
sometimes you make me feel sick
yet i still wish that you come afore

why are you forever hidden
and define love as forbidden
love is a feeling so splendour
it is not everyone you adore

yet i feel love for you to the core
and it is you that i so adore
but you choose to live alone
and forever closing your door.

2/5/09

Cherished by me

You remind me of chocolates
delicious and mmmh oh so sweet
someone people can turn to in crisis
and loved by all

You remind me of a teddy bear
cute and soooo huggable
someone people can feel comfortable with
and so very special to all

You remind me of a balloon
happy and bouncy, bouncy
someone people can have fun with
and enjoyed by all

You remind me of a lot of things
but nothing can compare to the real person
who is someone I can look up to
and who will always be cherished by me

feeling blue..

feeling blue..

this craving need for you
is making me so blue
feeling that's deep and true
wish i am forever with you

you have touched my very soul
you have made my days whole
you have make me complete
you made my heart miss its beat

a breathe 4u...

when i breathe
i breathe for you
an insatiable need to be fulfilled
by the love that's making me blue

darling! where are you
i waited with an empty feel
is this how you want to instill
a love where agony continues

are you real?
are you true?
is this your thrill?
or you are just cruel?

image of you haunting..

it is always the night..

your image comes haunting..

there is no fear nor fright..

only a need and a wanting..

in the morning..

i wake up wanting your soothing touch..

epistles that give me a special feeling..

oh! how i wish that this feeling will last..

in the afternoon..

conflicts and reality come alive..

i wish for you to appear soon..

instead of asking me to live a lie.

oh! when will you be mine?

oh! will you ever be mine?

quietly its you i always find...

silently! you're always on my mind.

tis love is not in vain...

when the day ends in the night...

my heart sighed and i feel so drained..
my dream lover is still out of sight..
tis love for you is driving me insane.

if only i could lay my hands on you..
i will let you feel this shade of blue..
and let you feel my love that's true..
plunged into you and stick like glue.

i will let my love stick onto your brain..
gently caress you with pleasurable pain..
til you explode and come again and again..
and let you feel that our love is not in vain.
at 12:28 AM

love of a lifetime...

the wind silently whispers your name..
my love for you has no semblance of shame..
though my love 4u seems 2b just your game..
yet my heart burns n yearns 4u in endless flames.


in solitaire i visualize your tender body..
i dream of your flowing flawless beauty..
and a compulsive love for tis hidden lady..
makes me feel as if i have lost my sanity.


yet i can't resist this game of insanity...
a virtual game that seems so virtuous...
though morality speaks as if love's dirty..
and the beauty of our love made monstrous..
i will continue to cultivate tis love til eternity..
and make our love story so pure and gorgeous!


comes the time for me to give you a kiss...
i will love you in a way you won't resist..
i will take you high n low with a sharp twist..
give you a love of a lifetime for you to miss!

a love in despair...

in the silence of a cold cold night
i continued to wish for your sight
darling i wish to hold you so tight
and love you gently without a fight

but you are there in solitaire
and i wish you guide me where..
we make love and gasped for air
a love a passion that only we share

i want to gently brush your hair
i want to stroke you til you despair
i want to enter you without a tear
enter you and show how much i care..

dreamin...

I have been a such dreamer

dreaming for a fantasy to come true

but you are only a virtual

and it makes me really blue

I had wished for you
right from when I was in school

but you are always so cool

and I feel like a stupid fool

Maybe I should wake up soon

and fly oh so far away
from this impossible dream..
for to tango there must be two

images of you...

images of you intrude my mind...
ages since i have feeling of this kind..
angel! you make me feel like i can fly..
you have taken me to heaven in the sky..

i can see the twilight twinkle in your eyes..
i can feel that you are subdue and truly shy..
oh i feel true and fulfill that your heart is mine..
i can feel your love right up to my spine...

if only i can take away all your fears...
always there to wipe away your tears..
take your bites in pleasurable pain..
and make you come again and again..

beautiful is you...

if i...
have a wish...
i wish for you...
always!

if i...
let you...
passed by...
i will regret n cry!

sunshine...
i wish you are mine!
glad it's you i find...
plz don't let me whine!

waited for you in my dream

moments like this i feel...
a serenity without a view..
in the night i stood still..
watching and waiting til..

my eyes closed into darkness..
my heart a vacuum of emptiness..
i feel a conflict with madness..
this love grows without harness..

i call out your maiden name..
i waited for you in my dream..
but you vanished and never came..
i waited the whole night for a glimpse.

blue velvet

in you i feel..
a special you..
you may have strong views..
but thats how you honestly feel..
for that i connect with you..
a feeling that's real n true..
gives me a special kind of blue..
i love you..
why should i run from you..
i want you..
why must i lie to you..
to walk away from you..
would be eternally cruel..
tis love for you..
so special n true..
i love you ..
feels so happy n cool..

i feel only you..

i feel you in my mind...
i feel you all the time...
again it's you i find...
i feel exalted n sublimed..

life's frustrations i felt...
have all immediately melt...
i used to feel chilled...
now i feel so fulfilled...

though you are surreal..
yet you feel so real...
i whimper and appeal..
it is only for you.

rediscovery of feelings....

i thought...
this heart's dead...
thank God!
i m now feeling great...

this love need no rings...
i thought i have lost this feel
tis rediscovery of feeling...
why are you such an appeal

i love you...
without a face...
in the night still...
i feel your grace...

oh tis pleasurable pain...
when did it began...
in my mind it's you again and again
more so when it rains...

in silence...
i prayed...
your presence..
everyday...

my body awakened...
i feel our souls being united...
this passion that's latent
is now being fully ignited.